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yakan no kurai michi de , watashi wa watashi no te wo hokasu koto wa arimasen . tatoe watashi wa tandoku de no kyori de , anata wa itsumo watashi wo mitsukeru . subete watashi wa shittsu te iru , watashi wa anata ni ittsu ta . tatoe watashi wo wasure te , anata wa watashi wo oboe te shi nakere ba nara nai . watashi wa mada koto ga dekiru , kono sekai no rekishi no naka de nani ka wo kakikomu made aruku no ni tsuzuke te hikan shugi sha da . watashi wa dare mo dekiru koto wa yume ga aru , to watashi wa watashi no subete wo jokyo suru hitsuyō wa ari mase n deshi ta e ta . shikashi , watashi wa mada watashi no kokoro no kanjō wo shōkyo suru koto wa deki mase n . node , watashi no kokoro no kyōryoku na yokkyū ga ari masu . kyogi , kyōfu , kyoei shin , kanashimi ...watashi wa jūbun ni warui koto wo , korera no shurui no kyōfu ni hikui to wa omowa nai . watashi wa mohaya kodoku wo osore te , dareka da . utsubyō eien no , koko ga kaishi sa re masu . mo , watashi ga kare to hanashi te , kare wa tandoku de jibun jishin wo kaihatsu suru to hanashi te kure ta to omo~tsu ta . watashi wa dare ni suru hitsuyō wa ari mase n . watashi wa nani mo suru hitsuyō wa ari mase n . watashi dake de wa watashi no sekinin wo toru hitsuyō ga ari masu . tandoku kōdō wo shi te kudasai . mata , watashi no purojekuto ni watashi no yume wo oshie te hoshii to i~tsu ta . kare wa watashi ni , kono nagai kodoku wo kanri suru tame no hōhō wo mitsukeru koto wo susume ta . watashi wa kodoku mimi wo katamuke , subete no nochi , kare wa tadashii kamo shire nai ... ...kettei watashi wa kare ni hanashi wo kii ta saisho no toki , kare wa wara~tsu ta . kotoba de watashi wo gōmon ni shiyō sa reru ga , sorera wa mata , osoraku watashi no anzen okona~tsu ta hazu no mono desu . moshi dare ka ga , sore wa watashi no suto wa watashi wo karaka~tsu da~tsu ta watashi wa omo~tsu ta . kore dake no tame ni , watashi wa shiawase da to omo~tsu ta . mae ni , wareware taikutsu ka , sono tame ni watashi tachi no subete wo yurusu koto ni kantan deshi ta . subete ga okoru dake de koto ga okoru daro u ga , nani mo mae ni okonawa reru yō ni . kanpeki na shinkū , misu , ai ...watashi tachi wa tsunagaru yō ni kimyō na seikatsu ...wa , tsuneni , zetsubō zōo no ai , kanashimi , watashi tachi no kokoro no naka de yume wo miru . watashi no yume ga kuru~tsu te , hateshinaku tsuzuku . hoshi no yō na karera wa kagayai te i ta . watashi wa mada sono hoshi ga mie ta . watashi wa me wo toji te watashi wa 3tsu ni kaunto shi te , me wo hiraki masu . shikashi , hoshi no kage wo , watashi wa mada yume wo mi te iru . watashi wa jibun jishin wo hyōgen ga , watashi wa jibun no 1hyō wo shutoku suru dōki ga ari masu . shikashi , watashi no hontō no koe wo , osoraku doko ka ni watashi no naka de , boku no yume wo jitsugen suru koto desu . watashi ga sora no yō ni kurayami wo mi te , kumo ga kie te shimau . watashi no me wa , watashi no kibō ni muka~tsu te idō shi tsuzuke ta . watashi no mawari de mo ima , hoshi no kirameku kagayaki ga , watashi wa sorera wo miru koto wa ari mase n . sa re ta kono kigō ？ sagashi ...tan'naru sakkaku da~tsu ta . watashi wa tachiaga~tsu te , watashi no chokkan de watashi wo shinrai shi te , watashi wa kono yō na kibishii genjitsu wo ōdan kanō sei ga aru subete no kosuto de eru ni wa , watashi no yume wo hatasu , to kangae , tsuneni , mada sonzai wo hokori ni omo~tsu te tachi age wo kitai shi te iru . watashi wa kako no hanashi wa shi taku nai , watashi wa , genzai iki te i te mo , kono sekai no uso de michi te i mashi ta . shikashi , kanashimi ni shizun da , watashi wa sore wo tsukuru koto wo jitsugen shi mashi ta . watashi shōjiki i~tsu te mi masho u . watashi wa kusen shi te iru bai no kazu wo motto miru aruiwa sore ijō ni watashi wa wara~tsu te , kono yō na toki , watashi wa inoru hoka no hito no jishin wo mo~tsu te shi tai gimon da . tadashi , watashi wa kage no toki wa , itsumo wa sateoki , settei sa re te , watashi no chūshin ga watashi no yume ga deki masu . watashi shōjiki i~tsu te mi masho u . ōku no baai , saigo made akirame nai de kudasai . ōku no baai , watashi wa saido shutoku shi masu . ōku no baai , shinji te i masu . ōku no baai , watashi wa yumemi te i ta . ōku no baai , monogoto oroka mi te ki mashi ta . ōku no baai , watashi wa , hito no kage ni ta~tsu te i ta . ima watashi wa , mein kyarakutā , watashi ni riko teki na koto wo kika se shi tai . watashi wa ōku no mono kara dasshutsu shi tai to , watashi wa kono kettei ni ma~tsu ta wo kakeru . shikashi , kono yume ...watashi wa ni nin iru kara iku koto wa deki mase n . watashi ga , watashi ga chūshin ni naru yō yumemi te iru . watashi wa uso de naku shi tari , nai tari watashi ga kirai ni owaru daro u shi taku nai . watashi wa mada watashi no tamashī ga yume wa yume to wa , watashi wa mohaya , baka saisei sa re masu . watashi wa sonzai shi tsuzuke masu . watashi no meiyo , soshite ima wa fushō shi te kitanai wa ...watashi wa kanji te ikari to ikidōri . soshite , motto 1tsu no yori ōku no kanojo wo mamoru tame ni anata no kokoro wo kono hito ni tenpu sa re masu . sonogo , karera no ashi no ma ni o , uragira re ta ga mitsukari mashi ta . watashi ga dare da ka wa watashi wo ninshiki suru yō na hitobito da . nin'i no watashi tachi no shinrai wo eru koto ni nari masu . sotchoku ni i~tsu te , watashi wa , korera no watashi no yume wo hotondo tassei wo kakunin shi , sore ga watashi no yume wo nozomu . watashi wa nani wo kanjiru ka osoroshii desu：sore wa zettai ni dare mo ga , hitsuyō to iu koto desu . jikan ga watashi wo sugoshi ta . watashi yori mo watashi ga jibun jishin ni chūjitsu de ari tsuzukeru koto wo chika~tsu ta da~tsu ta sorezore no hi , watashi wa mōsukoshi hanashi wo modoso u ...kore wa zetsubō teki da . watashi no jinsei wa , tatoe sono kokoro no itami wo yawarageru koto ga dekiru 1tsu no koto wa ari mase n kongo shi te i masu . ai . shikashi , kono koto wa , watashi ga , hotondo no itami naru mono no hitotsu desu . watashi wa anata no me wo toji te , watashi no kokoro wo hirai te kara , mōichido mi te iru baai , jissai ni wa , nani no kawari ni henkō sa re te mi tai . jissai ni wa , sono toki ni , kanashimi wa , kono shunkan ni , watashi wa higai ga akiraka ni naru . watashi wa jibun no kao to namida ga kuro no nagare wo kakunin shi , nozon de i nai no wa , nani wo motarasu desho u . sorezore no hi ni watasu to , watashi wa ikutsu ka no namida wa tsuyo sa wo yosoo~tsu te miru koto ni kizuka naka~tsu ta . dakara watashi wa iu："jibun ga hai , watashi ki ni taikutsu de , watashi wa kanojo no nikushimi ga , watashi wa sono yō ni suru koto wa deki mase n . watashi wa kakikomu , oboreru ōku no baai c'wa gomi , kusari kake te iru . watashi wa benri na , hiniku na koto ni kore ga koware te iru to fuantei ni kanjiru ga , watashi wa ōku no baai wa , watashi wa dono yō ni fukaku aishi nikumu kanojo wa kitanai te toshite katsuyaku shi , watashi wa shi tai wo korosu koto wo mi te , ketsueki , kanojo no kurushimu wo mi te , to chissoku sanshō shi te kudasai node , gōmon！Node , watashi wa chimei teki na doku wo koroshi ta no wa , watashi mo kakketsu wo sanshō shi te , kanojo wa kutsujoku desu . bōryoku , gekidō no jidai , zetsubō to kutsū wa , dō ya~tsu te "wo miru watashi ni wa chi no yorokobi kyougyūbyō wo atae ta sanshō shi te kudasai kibō wa , kanojo wo shiru koto wa deki mase n . watashi wa kanojo wo korosu daro u , watashi wa kare no kirā ni naru . shikashi , I nwa kanojo wa watashi ni kurushimu naru 'ga , seikō suru daro u koto wa nai . sore wa kare no chimamire no naifu wo mainichi no yō ni watashi wo kurinui ta . kanojo wa watashi ni haji wo kaka seru no ga suki da , watashi ni nai te kudasai . kekkyoku no tokoro , sore ga , kanojo wa manzoku shi te iru to wa watashi desu kanojo wa watashi ga jimen ni taore te mi te , watashi no memo nashi ni nozon de iru . made no saigo no iki wo shi , watashi wa nogareru koto ga deki masu kanojo wa watashi wo nozon de iru . kanojo wa yakubyō wo kanji te iru ga , watashi to issho ni se zaru wo e nai toki kanojo made watashi wa shinu . ',seimei , watashi no kokoro no fuka sa wo kira~tsu te , watashi wa hijō ni sukunai baai demo , sore wa watashi no jikan shiawase no jikan kara atae , kare ga daisuki desu . kore wa watashi dake gōmon sa re masu . "watashi wa ii mashi ta ： "ijō no sutoresu , ka zangyaku teki na , riko teki na , tsuisuto , kimuzukashii , zetsubō teki de , iya na , machiga~tsu ta , reikoku na , ryūketsu , kaimetsu teki na , osoroshii , bōryoku teki , zan'nen den'atsu kirā , kurushimi , bōringu , tsukareru , nagai , tsumaranai , nise , aku , kurai , keibetsu , shitsubō , kodoku , nosutarujikku, yūutsu , namida , ran ryū , haiboku . kore wa , gōmon sa re , hontōni benri na mijikai jinsei desu ka ？ shikashi , watashi wa aruku to , futatabi watashi no misu no omo sa de aruku watashi kata wo , watashi wa , watashi wa , jibun jishin wo shatto daun suru ki ga omoku naru , watashi wa iku shi tai baai wa , mōichido subete wo nageki kanashimu watashi tachi no seikatsu to shi no ma no pasu wo aruku ka , watashi wo jitsugen suru , watashi wa shōmō shi te ki ta hijō ni nagai jikan wa watashi no namida . yoru no ma ni wa , kaze ni ame ga furu to , watashi wa watashi no itami wo , watashi wa mugen ni nayan de arui te i ta arui te kudasai . watashi wa nigami no michi wo arui te , watashi ga watashi no kokoro soko ni a~tsu ta , karera wa nani no imi mo mo~tsu te i masu shi hajime ta toshi no yume , kibō , ai , dōjō , tsugi no hi , warai , korera no kotoba ga watashi no goi kara sakujo sa re masu ga watashi nitotte wa imi wo motsu watashi wo hōki shi , watashi no kōfuku wo taiken suru betsu no hōhō wo mitsukeru tame ni kawa no mama ni shi tai no desu ga toshi ni kibō wo ushina~tsu ta . watashi no hanashi , watashi no keiken wa , watashi wo korosu owa~tsu te shima~tsu ta . watashi wa aru hokori wo , watashi wa kanjiru , nani yori mo yowai . watashi no kokoro wa sudeni amarini mo himitsu ni omoi desu . watashi wa ima , jikan no itami wo shi~tsu te iru , to watashi wa tsuzuke te iru . nani ka no chansu wo kaishi suru koto desu ka ？ suru koto ga deki masu mohaya jibun jishin wo yokusei suru , watashi wa utsubyō kakure te , maiban nai te wa , mohaya kakusu koto ga deki masu shi te i masu . watashi wa taihen , watashi wa isoi jibun jishin no zetsubō ni , watashi wa sore wo hitei sa re mase n ga , subete kanryō shi ta nochi . watashi no kokoro wa itsumo kanashimi no namida de ippai desu . watashi wa mō nan nen mo ima no ga nakunari shidai shūryō , kono shōheki wo kokufuku suru koto ga deki masu . watashi wa , itami ya shitsubō wa , watashi wo yurushi wo atae nai . watashi wa okubyō sha ka ？"watashi wa henji wa i , watashi yakunitata nai kanji te iru .
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